Some people can shove the thought away and live a mathematical equation where everything is portioned and calculated to their convenience...some others are not so organized when it comes to matters of the heart, they just seem to be amnesiac when it comes to emotions...I guess the whole body chemistry changes and turns the very logical well content person into...a love freak.

I'm not being so hard on those emotional fools...am I?

Well...may be I am ,yet being one of the previously categorized I totally excuse all dumb actions and the doped tranquility that drives them blindly into a very complicated situation where they eventually realize what a mess they've led themselves into yet bounce up and down like a child with the least hint of their loved ones.

The Love...The One...represent an attractive nuisance...I won't give the example of the butterfly / light thing cause I hate overused clichés...I'd rather see it as the lousy game stupid kids play. the chubby bunny thing ...imagine jeopardizing loosing your life to get the most quantity of candy up your throat...if you pulled it you'll have the rush of winning and the sweet taste of candy yet if you choke on it you'll loose your life!

I'm not exaggerating here...love doesn't kill...I know...but isn’t living with continuous hunger and starvation of that loved one isn't living at all...not to mention that living isn't a hot thing after all .

Yeah...some people will just look at it from their rainbow side and say..well...when it's true, mutual it will be heaven..

Well excuse me..but that's just bull we screw ourselves with...it's a rare rare chance that anyone could have that truly all life long..

Yeah, I've been cursed or maybe blessed by being the backstage girl where I see all hidden unrevealed ugliness of the great charade we're all playing...

Happily married couple...a perfect picture that makes all friends envious: wish you can see your hubbie screwing his best friend's wife when you were doing your facial!!

And very devoted husband who eats shit for his family and has no idea that his missy curses the day they met cause he hasn't bought her a convertible yet..

Many many other examples and yes truth hurts and yes YOU won't take this rationally cause no one - including me to an extent - likes to hear the ugly naked truth!

And the truth is...I can't live with it and I can't live without it and I'm falling real hard for the attractive nuisance.