Blast From the past

I was going through older versions of websites I made ... and I came across my old poetry .... feels like a million years ago. The sad part ... people I wrote these about ... never deserved it

One day you'll grow up

And You'll know you were wrong,

When you said .. Give up!

You'll know the heart you tore

the one that used to beat your name

is no longer the same

You'll know that life is tough

And when you waste love

It gets really rough you get pain from above.

Made me cry

Just wondering why

Love, dear, is something you give

Not waiting for what it has to offer

so GO now

I'll live

I had enough and I still suffer

Cause you don't deserve me

And we were not meant to be!

Lovely Pain

So many people Approached

And competed to make a speech

They said, love is a ghost

everyone started to preach

I just have to refuse all this

the love I hold is too great

and though I'm under stress

I'll always be strait.

I said .. I don't love

I just simply worship

and the torture I feel

from my love..

is like molten steel

on my heart

but it's great..

The hurt is ..

great..

Hurt me more

Let me enjoy!

Wounded Heart

I can never forget the pain you offered,

to a wounded heart that have solely suffered.

Your cold blunt razor went through deep,

made pain, torture and rupture mine to keep.

I had to live through it, night after night, forever.

As you needle your way through my heart,

I feel the sweetness of your cruel lovable torment.

and then you suddenly struck deep to a precious part

A part you occupy where my soul, willingly, went.

The blood in my veins pleaded and cried,

"Spare that place", in vain it tried.

And the cold spark with the wicked smile,

shined in the face of horror.

Then I realized that it'll only be a while

before my image speaks from the mirror.

So you back off with a tear going down your cheek

you suddenly feeling wary and weak.

as the tear floods a nearby rose.

you discover the pain poured ,with no cause

But the scar you left was so great, still beating.

with every teardrop searching and seeking.

for the tenderness behind the clearest eyes

with an angel inside that never lies

Right then the sun was allowed to rise

to enlighten love with pain, startling the wise..

to enlighten pain with love of an enormous size.

Run To your freedom

Run to your Friends

See if I care.

Run to vice

Run to death

If you think you dare.

Don't look back

Don't remember

What we used to be.

Play with feelings

and get others hurt

Do that everywhere.

No matter how you try

No matter how good they are

The likes of me, to you, are Rare!

Tear my Heart

As you slowly sadly talk

I hear the pain raging

I feel it building

watch it growing

Rain bleeds

streams down my cheeks

drained my soul

weakened my mind!!

I guess I deserve it

I was too kind

I felt your pain

I was there

I denied my self

till you felt me no more

accepted your flows

accepted the war

was ready to go to hell

for a simple smile

fight a hurricane

to get an inch closer

That's why I deserve it..

Tear my heart.

we're already apart

Healer

Tonight I sit

I regret

The sight of the dove

that brought all that hate

I don't hate

I never hurt.

Fate

a lot to sort

waiting to mature?

never will

when all I endure

pain ... loneliness to fill

I opened up too fast

and drowned

to a sweet dream

I surrendered

no where to go

no one to talk to

nothing else

thanks, sorry, goodbye

make me want to die

instead of all the promises

that said.. I'll fly

time heals the pain

you simply feel insane

yet you scratch all

and start all over again

I won't

Paralyzed Words

When your heart is so full of joy

and you mind is stunned of glamour

you start to starter like a little boy

everything starts to have humor

And you sit over there

Just thinking what to say

words stuck not going anywhere

you shut up till the end of the day

When you look back at your pain

and touch where you are

and thank god for what you gain

and sigh, she's not far

At your tongue your words just Freeze

and no matter what they won't go out

no matter how hard you squeeze

We're in love there is no doubt

One day ..we'll make it through

me, you and the love that we grew

You , Or No one

I move slowly to a dark house

where I feel all that attraction

and I feel all that brain to arouse

when I do I feel deep satisfaction

your love to me is matched by none

with pride, I cry, it's you or no one

Your blessing love makes life tick

that great love you give, gives a lot

from remote you heal my heart when sick

with your love, greatest thing I've got

love like nothing under the sun

That's why it's you, or no one

I made up my mind

to fight for ever through all stress

I know I will never be behind

cause all I want in life is you're bless

you deserve all I will do, all I've done

so I swear, it's Only you or no one

it's only you or no one,

Absolutely none.

Tonight I cry

All those love songs, all those tears

melting their way down my icy cheeks

there is nothing to be scared of, to fear

other than, your absence, making me weak

sometimes I lose hope, I pray to die

I remember your eyes and I continue to cry

I sit on my bed, you picture to hold

trying to ease things, to over come the pain

she's coming soon, words castled from gold

I kept telling my self that, again and again

but you're still, till now, so far away, why?

so for that , tonight I'll cry

No longer can my eyes bear no sight

no longer can my poor heart wait

but sometimes, one is not right

force your self to accept what you hate

that was the worst day when you said good bye

and ever since... every night .. I cry

I Worship You

I worship you .. in silence ...

as I lick my wounds

caused by loved ones

people we love and respect

hurt us the most

I look out there

searching for a candle light

in the ocean of pain

and the desert of insecurity

I find my self all alone

with only your eyes

hooked on me

begging me to succeed

and so I will

as the pain grows

in the darkness

it throbbing glows

I smell my weakness

I feel more pain

And I swear

it will not happen again

so I take up the fight

and with your love

I hold on tight

to rescue my dove

from the snake

from the Hurt

pain and ache

and now all that is mine

to always keep

and forever

be proud of

for the hell

in your tears

is what I fear

and their paradise

is theirs.. to keep

and I weep

forever ... so away

so deep ..

I cry my breath out

as I pray

for you

to keep

A Killer (To a dear Murdered friend)

I never recall I cried this much

over any one in my life

made me deeply touched

to lose someone I loved that much

When I realized the Crime

It was late enough

and I had no more time

to save my friend the dove

The long fangs of horror

went deep to the Heart

poor friend had to suffer

all that pain alone from the start

She had no voice anymore

she suppressed her pain

but the Broadcast I can't miss

touched me deep again and again

When I tried to help

I was kicked so far away

when I got there again

I couldn't last a day

through all that pain

So I tried all over

to get her closer

to get her to shore

but she Just sank

and I saw her killer

I saw her

she was looking like her

talking the same way

moving quickly away

I Sore by all the love in me

to avenge my friend's death

so that she can be free

from the lady Mac Beth

And one day I'll kill the killer

for what she has done

I'll do that for you my friend

and your war is still not won.

Until she's dead..

Until she's gone

Sudden Death

They Said I'm the Devil

Out to get your Soul

don't care what you endeavor

Humiliation is my goal

They said I don't care, I lie

and all I want, is to make you cry

Something from deep within

erupted in a glorious spark

feeling sorrow , feeling all that burn

and I find my pain shouting in the dark

it hurts so much just to hear it

it kills if you believe it

I worshipped you and I still do

believing in you for EVER

and I hopped this thing we will not go through

and we both wouldn't have to suffer

but what also could be done

they lied and you believed the wrong tongue

I will Stick to everything we had

Never letting go, you can say I'm mad

but no matter what happens to us

I will Not let go,

After all the trouble all the pain and Fuss

letting go is something I wouldn't do

I still have faith in you

I still have faith in god

I know he knows everything

and will certainly save us

for he knows we were true

no matter what they say or do

and I will never stop loving, you.

The Night Angels Cried

I can never forget that night

The last night before the departure

and I will always remember the dimming light

and all that pain, hurt and rupture

My eyes flooded with blood

something only you and I understood

we decided before to be patient

to go through it all including pain agent

be there for each other

no matter how hard we suffer

I can remember your pains

I can feel all of it

feel the tears as it rains

and all my pleas and comforts wont stop it

those raining pearls are just great

an angel bleeding, aching, at stake

afraid of the next day sun

afraid of the ticks of the clock

feeling as id I'll lose all I've won

and be away from you, stuck

praying god to get you back

here, yet, wish you the best of luck.