I realized today that it'll start soon Inshallah...what has been going on is merely the end of a phase not the beginning of one...and changes was bound to happen to close a chapter and start a new novel.

 

I spent most of the time today with my best friend ENO as I needed to be next to her while her lovely mom is in the hospital...May Allah grant her health and a quick recovery...I never felt closer to my friend who has witnessed most of the major events in my life for the past 10 years...I won't say much about y feelings related...all i can say is: If anyone ever thought that life has anything more precious than PEOPLE...then they're Jerks!

 

Tonight, I was at my grandmother's who suddenly and without prior expectations had a brain minor damage which was only due to age...and I saw her sleeping on that bed almost fading away...and again, I won't dwell about my heart and emotions and how such facts of life terrify me...I'll just stress on the above conclusion.

 

A distant flag is waving brightly for my attention holding hope and happiness...And that is totally overwhelming to the extent that I'm mesmerized...I'll enjoy that...and shut up for the time being.

 

Work, and by the next weekend will show either ups - for me - or out!

I ain't sad...I'm just scared...only because I'm a responsible parent who's carrying the task absolutely solely...

 

Kids are well thank Allah but Hassan is going through some growing up - compared to his age - and that's a bit puzzling and worrying.

 

The Important point about all of the above is that it's making my head spin...some blur try to cover my eyes yet i shake it off and regain focus.

 

and that only means one thing: the change is coming and the new phase will begin soon.

 

Praying to god it will be a smooth process and safe on my kids and mom.

 

Say Ameen!